If there is one thing that I have learned after learning about forgiveness for a month is that it does not happen overnight. Forgiveness takes time. It is annoying but it is true.
When I started this year, I fully planned on making no new year’s resolutions and just winging whatever comes. I eventually decided against that. Even with the resolutions I have made, it is still very difficult to let myself fail. And when I do, be empathetic with what I do feel.
I recognize that what I want to do in my life won’t be easy. In fact, it is going to be hard. I know that I want to become is a person who is willing to get back off of the ground even when it is hard.
It reminds me of a post I made back in August. I talked about a book I was reading and how in one chapter, the author interviewed this one fighter about failure. The fighter talked about when he would fight he expected himself to win. When he didn’t, he lost all confidence and started losing more fights.
But there was one fighter who would spring back after he lost. The fighter realized that there were winners and losers and some nights were just not his nights.
Reading back through this post I have realized that I have been getting too hard on myself for not working as hard as I should or writing more. I too have good nights and bad nights. I too should realize that I don’t have to be perfect all the time.
It sounds easy enough, but in reality, it can be hard. I have realized that I can’t be perfect all the time. It is all a mental game and if you let go, you forget.
Today I am going to try better at letting myself fail every now and learn to get back on my feet.
I may not be perfect but I can always strive to be the best I can be.
