A Desire To Change

Does Gratitude work?

I feel like that is one question that a lot of people, including me ask.  It’s almost like we don’t see anything more but something on our to-do list.  

I have been guilty of doing this.  I told you all during my second week that I have never seen it more than that.  Now, as we end gratitude, I can’t help thinking that I didn’t do all that I could to learn from this.  

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I have struggled as many people have, but I kept on seeing gratitude as something that we need to constantly have on our list, and I’m not a fan of lists. 

When I was little, my parents constantly pushed me to create lists.  They would buy planners, sticky notes, anything to have me write down what I needed to do that day.  

To this day, I still make a list.  But only inside my head.  If I formulate a list, I will get frustrated and I won’t be able to see anything but the size.  

So, putting gratitude on a list of ever growing needs, I prioritized it by putting it at the bottom.  Where I couldn’t see it. 

Even after learning that I shouldn’t do that and that I need to stop having it on my list, I still didn’t listen.  

How do we combat that and get over it?

It’s not simple, I can tell you that from personal experience.  I think it has to do mostly with personal desire.  

When one has a desire, they push themselves to achieve it and they will become better.  When I think of gratitude, I don’t desire it.  But I want to. 

I think that is what will get me there in the end.  A desire to gain a desire to be more grateful.  

And maybe, I’ll put it higher on an actual list!

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